Life as I know it

We've been talking and have spent a lot of time together this week. It makes me feel great and extremely happy. Of course, I'm hesitant because of the heart ache I've been through. I was at the breaking point of letting her go. I have signed the divorce papers and she was to be served either Tuesday or Friday of this past week. Tuesday morning she called me from work angry and upset about everything. I left work for a long lunch and we shared a lot of our thoughts, feelings, etc. The divorce is 'on hold.'
Many are surprised, including myself. Everything including her words and actions and led me to 'the bottom.' I appreciate all my friends, family and e-pals that have supported me throughout the past several months. My prayers have been answered, for now. It's time to get my family back into church and focused on the future. We have a lot of potential and will be stronger than ever.

It's great to bring in the New Year with my wife, my family, my sanity!!!

God Bless you all and may your new year be prosperous!
Gregory

It's been a difficult year to say the least.  Many ups but mostly down.  Within the next year, I will be divorced -- never thought I would say that.  We developed a strong relationship years ago and made it through almost everything.  We have a beautiful son together.  So much I could and want to say about how great we were but it's difficult.  I need to move on with my life and do what's best for me and Kolin.  I'm the greatest Dad and Kolin knows that.  He's "Da-e's boy" as he would say.  By no means perfect but I do a great job.

Not so much a Merry Christmas this year, very hard.  I remember in year's past arguing about how much time we spent with her family versus mine during the holidays.  How little that seems now.  I'd love to just be a family again. 

Good bye for now, and see you next year!?

My sister got married today. It's been a somewhat emotional few days for me. I see that I need to go on but during down days, I pray she somehow wants and has desires to be wth me - to come home. Do you realize how many people are affected by your relationships? Life will go on but I need it to hurry. Perhaps it's the holidays and not having her there to share the our son's life with one another. I sometimes wish I would have allowed 'us' to continue through the first of the year as she requested but her relationship with him was and still continues to eat me up inside.

I'm taking the next step for tomorrow although at this time I don't consider it a 'better' tomorrow. I want to become independent and work on myself but long to share with that special someone. With so much going on, it's hard to find new friends. I have started going out and doing things. Even if just to keep my mind off her, I have to keep moving. I'm hurting emotionally, struggling financially and questioning spiritually. Only time will tell.

Thanks for listening, hope to post more often but it doesn't have the same affect on my self healing as it once did.