Yesterday was 'eventful'
Leaving in great spirits, I decided to stop by Charlin's work for a surprise visit. I intended on purchasing 2-dozen roses until I noticed 'his' car in her company's parking lot. I lost it. I became extremely enraged and approached him in the lobby. I held back but did cause a scene. I would like to say it's uncharacteristic of me as I have NEVER had such strong feelings against anyone I've ever known in my life. If I were to release the anger within, I fear for him. I have much to live for and was able to walk away from the situation. I called Charlin from the parking lot and asked why he would be there. Response? He was there to talk to Andrea (her co-worker/friend) about a job at the Natalie Building. BS I say.
I'm not sure what to do at this point in my life. I wish I could just walk away. If it wasn't for Kolin, I would have been gone quite some time ago. It's amazing the affects of infidelity and the statistics of how many people are involved in such a life. Why don't we communicate anymore? Where did our morals go? Wasn't it "...until death do us part?" If your currently marriage, do whatever it takes to make everyday the best you can. If your considering marriage, perhaps write your own vows based on the life & statistics of today's lifestyles.
I pray for God to intervene in our marriage and open the doors of opportunity. We're in dire need of direction. I believe things are going in the right direction for my career. Motivation has arrived and I'm pushing to make improvements like I never have.
To all... God Bless and have a great weekend!
posted by: Deanna (reply)
post date: 03.17.06 (2:38 pm)
Wow, that does sound "eventful." I am sorry you had to go through that but in a way it was better for you to see him there than for you not. Now you know you have to keep that much more of an eye on your wife to make sure she is working on this marriage just as much as you are.
About your son and potty training, the best way I did it with my daughter was reward her with stickers everytime she did not go in her pants. After so many stickers we would buy her a reward for doing so good. Once that starts to kick in then start rewarding him weekly. Example, after one week of no accidents we took our daughter to Chuck-E-Cheese. Then go for two weeks and so on. My daughter is fully potty trained now and I am thrilled.
Good luck on the career change. I hope you find what you are looking for.
posted by: micah (reply)
post date: 03.19.06 (4:43 pm)
hey, have you guys had couseling from our church? My wife and I have gotten counseling from there and they've really been helpful. I know a lot of people who stuck it out through a miserable marriage for the kids and regretted it. I'm not saying you should give up hope, and I haven't heard her side of it either, but if it's not getting better, then it's getting worse. I'm glad you've found the motivation that you need, and am sure that things will turn around if you continue to persist and delight yourself in the Lord.
Oh yeah, if you're in church on wednesdays, take Kolin to the farm room. My wife is the master teacher. Hope to talk to you soon.
God bless.
posted by: Burleson, Tx (reply)
post date: 03.22.06 (5:31 am)
Greg I hope you don't wait to long to find the corredt path you should take with your marriage. You should continue relying on the Lord and his way, not yours or mine. I know you know about broken homes, just remenber what we be best for your son as you need to be at ease to raise him properly.
posted by: 1graham (reply)
post date: 03.24.06 (6:25 am)
Reply to: micah
Thanks for the advice. We have not sought counseling from COTM yet. We did inquire about the process to become a member but missed the first class. I will not give up hope -- I'm committed, dedicated, in LOVE with my wife. I know I can't turn back time and correct the things we've done wrong to one another but we can make each new day something special for one another. I feel as though I'm the one giving 100%+ and she is simply 'there.' I want her to show me that I am meaningful in her life and our family.