Life since her return

On Father's Day she returned home. A huge mix of emotions as life 'alone' was beginning to take shape. Elated one moment and extremely frightened the next. I still sometime wonder if her return is forever. I will always love her but I don't feel as though she truly loves me in return. She respects me, but the love is not there.

Life has improved and we continue to work on our relationship. We comleted 'PREP' courses through Family & Children Services which was educational. They provided some great information but I don't feel as though we've truly put it to work nor practiced the 'art of communication' and how to effectively deal with one another's differences. We're now attending 'Straight Talk for Men' and her 'Victory by Virtue for Women' and Victory Christian Center. My walk with God is improving but I have much to learn. This past year or so, I seem to have a difficult time learning. Anyhow, the classes have proven beneficial and I enjoy my cell group.

It's amazing how easy it was to share my thoughts and feelings when I was down, grieving and lost in this world. Life isn't perfect at this time but I have trouble expressing my true feelings. Life is what you make of it --- dear God, please help me exceed my personal expectations in all that I do. I'm lacking the motivation. I have a wealth of ideas, a drive for improvement and much to work for but the motivation isn't fully there. Perhaps I have too much on my plate?

Thought I'd just share a bit of my life since her return. One can't fully share everything ... not at this time anyhow. Soon to be a Dad again . . . Greg ps... yes, you read the closing right, more as time permits :)